Putting Myself Out There
A while back I wrote about a friendship that had ended. It was a very hard decision, and one that I thought was the best thing for myself and my family. I have reconsidered.
Ron and I have been in therapy for a while now. During our last session, we talked about this and how hard it has been for me. I wanted to talk about the decision I made, and whether I over reacted or not. During the session I realized she made a decision that would save her marriage. She did what she had to do at the time. While I may not have agreed with her decision, it was hers to make. I also understand that if she had been forthcoming with the information, it may have caused more harm. I really do understand that now.
I received a mass email from her, providing an update on her pregnancy. The email got me thinking even more. I talked with Ron about it, and how sad I still am about not being a part of her life, or her a part of mine. He finally said to me, “Why don’t you just ask her to lunch and see how it goes from there?” And I thought, you know, he’s right. This is silly. I’m so sad about not being her friend. I miss her, I truly do.
So, I put myself out there once again. I sent her an email asking her to lunch. (Though with her baby due May 20, and a possible c-section on May 1, it may not be possible any time soon.) I’m nervous, waiting for her response. I realize there’s a chance she’ll not be ready to repair our relationship. Though I’m hopeful that she will want to repair it. I already know the relationship between her husband and Ron and I will never be repaired. And that saddens me as well.
When’s the last time you put yourself out there, and took a personal risk?
I’m glad you’re doing what YOU want to do. I hope she accepts your outreached hand and you are able to mend the friendship.
Comment by Imperfect Christian — May 1, 2007 @ 2:48 pm