A Bit of Cyn

The planning has begun! Sophia’s 3rd birthday party will occur this Sat. Oh my… (How did 3 years pass by already?!) We’ll be having 3 “little” kids, 3 “older” kids, and quite a few adults. We’ll be BBQ-ing, eating cake, and hopefully enjoying the outdoors. She doesn’t quite get that her birthday is approaching, but I am sure she will enjoy it.

Ron and I have yet to think about a birthday gift for her. This child really doesn’t need anything. Perhaps will just put some money in her college fund. We really don’t need more toys, art supplies, babies, books, movies, or outdoor stuff. But she could always use help for the future. We’ll see.

After her party is over, it’ll be time to plan for Drew’s 1st birthday. (Again, how in the heck has 1 year gone by?! It’s crazy, I tell you.) I think we’ll be doing a bit more of a low-key party for Drew since we will have just had our friends over for Phia’s party. Probably just do family and very close friends. He won’t know the difference and it’ll be easier for us. As long as we get some pictures of him stuffing his face, all will be good.

Oh, and Sophia got invited to her first friend birthday party! I don’t know why this excites me so much. It’s so cute. (And I really like the girl whose party she was invited to.) I’m not sure when it is yet, but I sure hope it doesn’t overlap her own bday party! That would make me so sad…

What else is happening? Drew is starting daycare next week. He’ll be going two days a week. I’m both excited and nervous about this. It’ll be good for him to interact with others. He’ll have fun with the other kids, and I love his teacher (same one Sophia had). And, his cousin will be in his class one day a week. How fun! But, it’s a bit sad, too. Partly because he’ll need me less. (Which is good as well!) I also know that it will be hard for him to adjust to this new environment, his new caretakers, and his new schedule. But honestly, I think, no, KNOW, it will be good for him.

I’ll be doing some work while he’s at daycare, though my work is a bit hit or miss. (As a consultant, there are days I have work and days I don’t.) So I’m looking forward to having some time to myself, to making some money, having adult interaction, and getting errands/cleaning/shopping done without a kiddo to be concerned with. It will be good for all of us!

A conversation with Phia, while getting ready for bed…

Me: Goodnight, Phia. I love you. See you in the morning.
Phia: But I’m hungry, mom.
Me: Then you should have finished your yogurt. You can eat more in the morning.
Phia: But the baby in my tummy is so very hungry!

Uh, I hope not! Funny little girl…

So here it is. The long awaited blog entry that I have been thinking about and wanting to write for quite some time now.

Where is the pause button?

A few weeks ago I was laying down with Drew. He fell asleep while nursing and just laid there in that breast milk drunken state. I stared at him for at least 15 minutes, just watching him. It was as if I was trying to memorize every part of his face, to remember it just that way for the rest of my life. He was so sweet, so beautiful, so innocent, and mine. It made me think, where is the pause button?

I would have loved to pause time in that very moment. To smell his baby breathe, touch his soft, silky skin, listen to his sweet baby sounds. I could have done it forever. I could have laid there with him and never gotten up. It was sad to know it wouldn’t/couldn’t happen. (I would have totally missed Phia! And I’m sure I’d have to go to the bathroom at some point.)

Yet, I’m so excited to see who he becomes. Who Sophia becomes, for that matter. I’m excited to see who Ron and I become as their parents. But for that moment, I could have paused time and been pretty darn happy.

Tell me, when was the last time YOU wanted to pause life?

We’ve been back from Florida for just over a week. In my head, I “write” blog entries. But when I actually have the time to sit down and write them, I don’t. I seem to find other activities to occupy my free time. I’m not sure why I do that because I really would like for my blog to be updated and be some what of a journal for myself (and the kids). Then I get irritated with myself for neglecting it. Ugh…

Florida was nice, but I was quite happy to get home. Both kids did very well on the plane, and on the trip (for the most part). We brought a pack-n-play for Drew, but Sophia ended up using it. Drew slept with me, and Ron slept on the couch. (One of the reasons we were all happy to get home.)

We played at the pool, went to Cocoa Beach (for a whole 30 min. when Sophia decided she was scared of the waves), visited Ron’s side of the family twice (in Winter Park), and we even went to Dis*ney World. (Ron’s aunt gave us free tickets, so how could we refuse? Sophia thought it was GREAT!) One other problem we had was that Sophia could unlock the Condo door, so we’d end up chasing her into the parking lot or across the golf course at least twice a day. No matter what we told her, how we “threatened” her, she kept doing it. I’m so glad to not have to chase her any more.

Well, Sophia is trying to push herself into my lap so I’ll close now. I’ll try to get back soon to update more. I still want to write the post I talked about in the previous post!